So I am two weeks back on police wife life. My officer is still on days and working the admin phase of his training. Its sort of dreamy because its a win win for both of us.
He is back at the job he loves and I have him home at night.
Even better bonus...Christmas off.
Then two weeks into it, things get shifted around (see what I did there?) and now he is working Christmas Eve, Christmas day, New Years Eve and New Years day. Did I mention our anniversary is on New Years Day?
6 years ago this would have sent me into the pits. I would have worn black clothes to work the next day and cried off and on all day and eaten McDonald's or something terrible to stick it to the bad news. I am a big fan of grieving a loss correctly. But today as I started to cry I realized this is it. I have a choice right here that will dictate my path. It will set the mood for the hard realities of shift work. I have a choice to choose joy. Not to "suck it up" but to choose joy. Choose to acknowledge the positives and live in those blessings.
I know. I KNOW. Its almost obnoxious to read. BUT its CRUCIAL in this job. Its life giving. Its survival. Try it. You will see.
Thursday, December 3, 2015
Monday, November 23, 2015
An Officer and a Mrs.
Well hello again. My last post was about the time everything changed. Officer decided to try out being a mister.
We moved.
Found out we were pregnant.
with twins.
Moved again.
Spent two sweet years working on our marriage in an 8-5pm job with great people and a great schedule.
And now. We are back. Obviously a lot happened during that time. But that sums it up quite sweetly. I wrote a post I never published about us leaving police life. It is strange to me I never posted it but I also think I always knew we would be back.
I definitely thought life would be easier on the other side. My marriage would get better, I would be a better..everything. But guess what? It wasn't better and I wasn't better, because my heart was what needed changing not my circumstances.
What did I learn? The Lord is SO faithful. He provided and cared for us in the best ways. Some of the time it was a desert and He still provided SO much joy. Even now as I write this, on the Officer's first day back in police work, times are tight and a little tough but we have so much confidence this is where we should be. Can there be anything sweeter than that?
We return on a mission and the world is not offering us a walk in the park. I am proud of my officer for following the Lord back here. We return to the same department and same great people. What a community. We feel blessed.
I married an officer. Not a mister.
We moved.
Found out we were pregnant.
with twins.
Moved again.
Spent two sweet years working on our marriage in an 8-5pm job with great people and a great schedule.
And now. We are back. Obviously a lot happened during that time. But that sums it up quite sweetly. I wrote a post I never published about us leaving police life. It is strange to me I never posted it but I also think I always knew we would be back.
I definitely thought life would be easier on the other side. My marriage would get better, I would be a better..everything. But guess what? It wasn't better and I wasn't better, because my heart was what needed changing not my circumstances.
What did I learn? The Lord is SO faithful. He provided and cared for us in the best ways. Some of the time it was a desert and He still provided SO much joy. Even now as I write this, on the Officer's first day back in police work, times are tight and a little tough but we have so much confidence this is where we should be. Can there be anything sweeter than that?
We return on a mission and the world is not offering us a walk in the park. I am proud of my officer for following the Lord back here. We return to the same department and same great people. What a community. We feel blessed.
I married an officer. Not a mister.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)