Where was I? Oh yea, lots of tears and a rough first year. Above is a picture from our wedding, SUCH a fun day!!
We had lots of these conversations, "so last night I thought this guy was going too....
-attack me
-come at me
-come after me
Or my personal favorite: "Don't panic, I am fine, but..."
I married the guy who is always in the action, the kid who always ended up with stitches, the one who would never back down from a fight, the designated hero.
We had to draw lines on what he could and could not tell me because I would be over come with worry, but more real, I would be so overcome with fear of being alone. That was the hardest part for me. I am an extroverted people person who liked being with people even when I was having "quiet time". This new found alone time haunted me.
I tell you all of these things because for the first year, ehh, first 1.5 I was a victim of my circumstances. I can keep listing all the different things that I thought were terrible about my life, but bottom line was, I was bogged down unable to see a lot of great beauty. Like for starters, I married the love of my life. Officer was love at first sight for me and I think that every day. We have our hard days, sure, but man do I love him.
I married the "designated hero" who God created to be an officer. I'm serious, this is his sweet spot. He can smell trouble and loves finding it. He makes our city a better place and LOVES his fellow officers. He is wonderful at it and doesn't burn out on action and helping people. He is genuinely compassionate for the less fortunate and law breakers. I personally do not get his heart some time, but praise Jesus he is out there and HE LOVES IT! Did I mention that?
I married a guy who cares for me and was trying to lead me the best way he knew on this new journey.
I married a guy who desired for me to be stronger and more independent. He has given me the ability to learn how to trust in my Savior in a deeper way. I truly know how to rely on God in a way I would never have learned otherwise, and officer has always lead me back to that truth.
I married a guy who surrounded me with good people to walk through that hard first year, and encouraged every opportunity to create more support or more adventures for me along the way.
That first year we....
-traveled to Maui
-visited all my besties still in college, whom i missed so much
-visted some besties in new mexico
-I completed my first half marathon
-he boxed in his first tournament
-bought a puppy
-moved (we really like moving...you will learn)
-joined a community group at our church
AN insanely joyous year...so what was the game changer for me?
THIS IS HUGE. If you hear anything from me...this was it. I still remember the day I read it. You see, my story wouldn't be my story without my faith in Jesus Christ. My faith is truly was allows my life as a mrs. to my officer to be fun, but the verse that changed it is:
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